From a very slow and full of rest first trimester, not-so-productive but super hungry second trimester, and a fatigue-nesting period in the third trimester. From all the trimesters, I have the mood and the chance (well I ALWAYS have the chance but not the mood) to write something about this pregnancy thing.
Carrying this little bundle around makes my head full of thoughts.. from emotional thoughts to crazy wild business ideas and plans about my career. I am not sure why, but it always brings me to the thought of working / career. Actually, this pregnancy makes my brain to think about lots of productive things. (but not doing it..)
Anyway! I summed up the journey below. I have experienced a roller coaster journey and I will only picked out the most interesting thing to write.
1st Trimester
No morning sickness at all, just tired.. very.. tired.. and emotional at random hours
Surprise! I am pregnant! had to check around 4 times before really going to the Obgyn. My husband and I really enjoyed those moment of waiting for the result on those sticks.. hahaha. And well, when it really happened, I have no clue about pregnancy at all and decided to resign from my current job to learn more about the pregnancy (how my body will react, rest, etc). I didn't want to risk it by stay working or lower my performance just for that.. It's better for me to just rest and observe, so that when the time comes again, I know what to do.
After deciding to resign from my current job In the first trimester, I was thinking to find a work from home opportunity. I was thinking to do that because I have all the database in my brain and my notes, I have developed a strategy to do a better sales, and I was more goal oriented and very much open to new practices at that time. Therefore I was super excited to do the job when I got one.
However, it lasted only for one and a half month before this pregnancy mood strikes in.
I don't know how many people have the same mood swing like I do, but I have it like most of the time.. I felt so weak against my own mood, as I always try to combat mood swings throughout my life before. But this one.. there's something that is demanding me to surrender to the mood swings. Oh well you deserve it pumpkin!
After performing sales calls and emails for around 3 months, I decided to withdraw as I didn't want to disappoint anyone with my performance. I think it's time for me to rest and find something lighter to do. Something has always been inside me - I am quite ambitious to reach for more, even though the job did not have any sales target whatsoever. Again, I think it could be a danger for my own self if I force it too much.
2nd Trimester
No more sobbing in the middle of the night.. and welcoming all kinds of food!
The second trimester is the happy trimester to me. I can eat! I gained weight! I am one of those expectant mothers who have a super slow weight gain. Just gained a few kilos in the second trimester as I was able to eat many foods than I could before. It was just uncomfortable to eat with sickness being around..
And in this trimester, I went out quite often because I have the energy! So happy that I can get out from the house (this means more than anything to me) and this has elevated my mood better than anything else.
I set aside the thought of work and career at this stage but my head kept on making plans on what to do after the baby arrives.. when to go back to work, and many other. This one is a hard one as it always pops out randomly and left me overthinking afterwards. Thanks to my husband... who.. is always.. not always.. ready to listen to this overthinking.
And oh! I have the urge to cook! In the first trimester cooking was a horrible thing to do. Some of my friends who know me, or my husband, know how much I love cooking. But during this pregnancy, I finally gained the spirit to be back in the kitchen in the middle of the second trimester.
And the pumpkin always kicks when I cook.. I wonder if he'd like to help out with peeling the veggies or something..
This trimester makes me realise how much I need to meet people in order to socialize and bring my mood back again to do things. These are some activities that I did during the second trimester, from photography to joining a workshop, and out to look for cats. Happy months indeed!
Cute cat really brings my mood.. and excites my husband's too!!
3rd Trimester
30 min walk is the longest I could do! Kicks are getting sharper
Getting in my third trimester where all I could think about.. is baby's clothes.. will it be enough? will the baby crib be okay? will the babytafel be useful? Will I be able to keep up with things?
I think it's the common thoughts that everyone has, but to be really honest this trimester is the most relaxing that I have. Despite all the overthinking, I have set my mind to be relax. I have done this far, and I will be meeting my pumpkin very soon!
All I wanted was to have enough rest until the delivery day. Why? I do not want to look fussy in front of my baby, and I want to make sure he received the soft kisses from me instead of my tired face and yelling all the time. I want to enjoy as many quality times with my pumpkin as possible. I just can't wait to meet him - this is my thought every single day now!
Behind all this, there is my husband who is continuously helping me with the chores and able to tolerate the mess in the house when I was too tired to do the dishes and things.. It's been a funny ride between us in this short, short time of us finally being together under one roof, and then pumpkin is showing up!
I do not want to worry that much. That is why I took him to have the conversation (even though he looked like 45% listening to me) but his actions are what makes me feel secure at many times.
Oh well. I will let you know when my Pumpkin has safely arrived to the world!
Hopefully he'll have a good time just like his mother who enjoys carrying him for 9 months :)
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