short twisted mind

spring

He hadn't even held the hand; he hadn't even knew yet how it feels to talk in the middle of the night starring each others' eyes; he hadn't even understood a thing when they got into trouble; he hadn't even got into trouble over a small thing

He hadn't even held the hand. Not a single touch.

So why would he left? There was no answer that led to that decision. There was no question thrown as well. Why would assumptions ruled each other?

If the feel of hugging each other is known, would he still leave, or would he take some time to realise what kind of feeling is that, that is dragging and slowly killing, and suddenly there is too much pain and doubt so he grab the bag and pack, pack for tomorrow, a tomorrow without an each other.

and when the day of the seeing each other has come, will he see each other or just hide the face, just to not feel that pain, or probably there was no pain at all, because there was nothing in the heart, nothing was felt, therefore nothing is hurt, when each other is seen.

but when the opportunity to feel the feeling of deep passion has come, will he choose to feel, or turn away because it never meant anything to him, because he was getting into trouble with a fool, a fool who is always too late to give the feel of passion, that the fool is always hiding and not sharing, that is probably why he left to see something not painful.

what if the fool has the opportunity to tell, to tell that the fool isn't a fool, but is a shy. but why would a fool be shy, when the shy knows, that there's nothing to be shy about, when the shy wants to tell.

or did the shy has also fear, that is the fear of pain, that is frightening and the shy believes that pain will never be recovered, because it's carved, carved on hearts, and it doesn't heal easily.

but the shy knows that it's late, and it's okay, that he doesn't turn back, and time won't be working backwards, just because it's better for the shy and he who is afraid of pain, maybe.

and maybe, if the shy is no longer a shy, words will flow, actions will follow, and he would turn around and listen, and if he would do an act, or a response, he would do things, that are not going to be painful if it does not last on each other, and it will, probably just a waving hand between each other, just to say goodbye, because it's not going to be painful, because nothing had ever happened. it ends just because it never happened.

the shy is no longer shy, the shy has spoken the truth, and he who feels pain does not feel any pain anymore.