Being 20

Hi.

It's been a while and now I'm writing like other bloggers. Sentences by sentences. While i-am-her usually post photos and stuffs.. Well lately I haven't touched my camera, since I have to prepare some things for my departure to Germany next year. Some of you might say that next year is still far away! Well do you notice that I only have less than 6 months to prepare things. From German courses and other applications. Anyway I'm going to Germany to do my Internship. So yeah, it's gonna be something when I don't speak their language...

I have to admit that my time for photography is now limited. It's simply because I realize that photography is my hobby, and I don't work as a Photographer anymore. Well in my previous posts I posted a lot of things related with my photographer life and I admit that I had a lot of fun! However as time goes by, I can't be that attached to this photography life. I have to see the world beyond photography, and I'm sure there are also great findings out there.

I used to have a hard time fighting for this unending passion for Photography. From dealing with my parents, managing my time with photo shoots and many other. I'm sure that I have filled my younger years with that beautiful pure passion, that makes me who I am today. Now I love doing things with all my heart, with no limits. And the love for photography makes me realize that I should love other things as much as I love photography. And there it goes, now I'm exposed to culinary, language and many other things in the future that await me. I feel blessed.

During the past four months I was exposed to culinary, every single day. And I was into culinary too. However there was still something inside that told me: cooking is hard, there are way too many standards to follow, and this is different with what I thought it would be. It sucked, I wasn't able to keep up until one day I joined this cooking competition held by a company. I was taught by my lecturer and his friend. Many sleepless nights, weary eyes and burned fingers. It was really hard! I thought I could never be something in culinary industry because it has way too many standards to follow and I just can't! Finally on the D-day, I didn't know what happened but I made it to the first winner. When I looked back.. I realize I just love what I just did. And it feels wonderful.

Then I took a moment to compare culinary to photography: photography has also many standards to follow when you are a photographer. You have to have that creativity and skills to do the retouching. Well I used to have it, but as a human I never felt enough when seeing other's work. What's the difference between these two then? Nothing. Both make me a superior human being. Both of these told me to not stop learning new things.

One funny things. Lately I've been learning German and it was seriously... a pain in the you know where. It is so hard!!!!! I have no idea how can a person speak that language with no grammatical mistake. I learned for 1 month, 4 days per week, 3-4 hours per day. And I almost gave up.. it was really hard I could kill myself. I was actually preparing for this internship interview from the companies. Then the D-day has come, I had to do the interview. I have prepared it for days with sleepless nights and weary eyes from watching youtube auf deutsch videos. It was crazy! I was scared to death that I can't speak clearly or I'll speak too slow during the interview. Turns out, when the interview ended, the HR person said "Ihr Deutsch ist sehr gut!". That makes me dancing for a minute or two. Well.. This proofs that human brain has no limit when we are trying. I adore God for making each of us blessed with intelligence and the ability to improve. I wish I could improve my German so that next year I could befriend some inspiring people there.

I know It's rare to see my writings, but get used to this as I will write instead of posting photos now :p

Anyway, thank you for reading!